As everyone knows, the 'Rusty Bottlecap' aesthetic that Foolproof Studios, as well as other talented designers, have helped to make hugely popular in tribal fusion circles is not only mindbendingly beautiful, but also ... a little confusing, if you haven't been exposed much to it. Since I live in rural Wisconsin instead of someplace like the Bay area of San Fran, I see more confusion than most people might. So I'll explain it a bit.
I can't say why others love this aesthetic - it's swept the nation, you can see its magical influence everywhere - but I can say why I love it.
For me, dance and art has been not only a process, but a rescue. A rescuing of one thirty-something, big-nosed housewife without a college degree, but with a huge desire gnawing at her to learn, learn, and do, do. Art, in the form of costume assemblage, and in the form of dance, has given me a way to explore the world that I never would have dreamed of before this life change.
In my early adulthood, I was a mom who, in her superreligious right wing fervor (scary, eh?), felt that watching TV or movies, and reading books that weren't by Christian authors wasn't ok. I was encouraged not to look men in the eye, in case they were tempted (something I still have trouble with - both the looking, and the tempting, I suppose ;)). As you can imagine, those types of weird rules + not much cash equaled a boring and restrictive life. Now, see, I love to learn. And I loooove to socialize. And - yes, right wing Christian males - I LOVE TO THINK. And none of these things was happening. For a woman like me, that's like a quiet but very dangerous Mount Vesuvius building up - for years.
I felt thrown aside, mentally, by the men in my life. I was told I couldn't help in church (which, remember, was my only social life) except for in the nursery. And I mean by several different pastors, in several different churches, along with elders etc. The message was clear: I was unintelligent and unable to 'help' with 'real' stuff. I was also, confusingly enough, treated like an ornament - and yet, even doing that was wrong to some of them. After all, dressing up might cause them to sin. I mean, they might see my mascara and nylons and have to go jack off in the church bathroom - and you know, that would have been ALL MY FAULT, right? Fuck that. Ridiculous, now that I've thought it through, but it happens all the time to women, and not just in a few right wing Christian churches, but around the world.
So then I tried to be very androgynous. Hey, I'm flat chested, so it was pretty easy. That way no one had to be jealous, turned on, or.... hey, wait a minute - notice me in any way. I didn't like that so much. My mother raised me to believe that what I said mattered, and apparently when I didn't cause a ruckus by being female, therefore sexy, (whether the sexiness was intentional or not), I didn't matter at all. The sexuality was the only important thing about me, apparently. Needless to say, I got tired of the whole shebang and got a divorce and left the churches I'd been going to. Best thing I ever did. I was free to be intelligent and to decide exactly how I wanted to look, act, and be. I can't even tell you how great that is without practically having an orgasm. Hey, I'm just kidding - or am I?
What does this have to do with costuming, you might say? Everything. When I see a rusty old piece kind of sitting in the corner of a garage sale, that's me. It might be lovely but forgotten. It might be able to have a very different function than the one everyone thinks of when they see it. It might be dirty, or silly, or even ugly the way it is. The main thing that I think I see is that the people surrounding it don't see its value, its possibilities. And I do. It's like rescuing myself all over again every time.
Do you understand now? I'll bet most of you already did, but it's nice to hear someone say it.
And then, for instance, it might become a medallion, or a drape, for a belt worn by a belly dancer - worn, for example, around hips that have powered this woman (or man)'s journey through life thus far. Those hips may have cradled babies, been the object of desire, received lots of hugs or sex or even abuse - but now they are the focus of every eye in the room. They move, maybe jingle, and everyone watches. They together are an emblem for self confidence gained through dance, an emblem for the dancer to show the world that they are valuable, fabulous, worthy of utmost attention. They are no longer voiceless or cast aside - the salvation of that little antique piece on the belt, possibly the salvation of the hips they rest on, the person those hips belong to. That's what I feel every time I make a piece of costuming assemblage.
A part of someone's Becoming.
I can't say why others love this aesthetic - it's swept the nation, you can see its magical influence everywhere - but I can say why I love it.
For me, dance and art has been not only a process, but a rescue. A rescuing of one thirty-something, big-nosed housewife without a college degree, but with a huge desire gnawing at her to learn, learn, and do, do. Art, in the form of costume assemblage, and in the form of dance, has given me a way to explore the world that I never would have dreamed of before this life change.
In my early adulthood, I was a mom who, in her superreligious right wing fervor (scary, eh?), felt that watching TV or movies, and reading books that weren't by Christian authors wasn't ok. I was encouraged not to look men in the eye, in case they were tempted (something I still have trouble with - both the looking, and the tempting, I suppose ;)). As you can imagine, those types of weird rules + not much cash equaled a boring and restrictive life. Now, see, I love to learn. And I loooove to socialize. And - yes, right wing Christian males - I LOVE TO THINK. And none of these things was happening. For a woman like me, that's like a quiet but very dangerous Mount Vesuvius building up - for years.
I felt thrown aside, mentally, by the men in my life. I was told I couldn't help in church (which, remember, was my only social life) except for in the nursery. And I mean by several different pastors, in several different churches, along with elders etc. The message was clear: I was unintelligent and unable to 'help' with 'real' stuff. I was also, confusingly enough, treated like an ornament - and yet, even doing that was wrong to some of them. After all, dressing up might cause them to sin. I mean, they might see my mascara and nylons and have to go jack off in the church bathroom - and you know, that would have been ALL MY FAULT, right? Fuck that. Ridiculous, now that I've thought it through, but it happens all the time to women, and not just in a few right wing Christian churches, but around the world.
So then I tried to be very androgynous. Hey, I'm flat chested, so it was pretty easy. That way no one had to be jealous, turned on, or.... hey, wait a minute - notice me in any way. I didn't like that so much. My mother raised me to believe that what I said mattered, and apparently when I didn't cause a ruckus by being female, therefore sexy, (whether the sexiness was intentional or not), I didn't matter at all. The sexuality was the only important thing about me, apparently. Needless to say, I got tired of the whole shebang and got a divorce and left the churches I'd been going to. Best thing I ever did. I was free to be intelligent and to decide exactly how I wanted to look, act, and be. I can't even tell you how great that is without practically having an orgasm. Hey, I'm just kidding - or am I?
What does this have to do with costuming, you might say? Everything. When I see a rusty old piece kind of sitting in the corner of a garage sale, that's me. It might be lovely but forgotten. It might be able to have a very different function than the one everyone thinks of when they see it. It might be dirty, or silly, or even ugly the way it is. The main thing that I think I see is that the people surrounding it don't see its value, its possibilities. And I do. It's like rescuing myself all over again every time.
Do you understand now? I'll bet most of you already did, but it's nice to hear someone say it.
And then, for instance, it might become a medallion, or a drape, for a belt worn by a belly dancer - worn, for example, around hips that have powered this woman (or man)'s journey through life thus far. Those hips may have cradled babies, been the object of desire, received lots of hugs or sex or even abuse - but now they are the focus of every eye in the room. They move, maybe jingle, and everyone watches. They together are an emblem for self confidence gained through dance, an emblem for the dancer to show the world that they are valuable, fabulous, worthy of utmost attention. They are no longer voiceless or cast aside - the salvation of that little antique piece on the belt, possibly the salvation of the hips they rest on, the person those hips belong to. That's what I feel every time I make a piece of costuming assemblage.
A part of someone's Becoming.

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